| Taking things to a deeper level takes time; don't rush someone who isn't ready yet |
[Jan. 26th, 2006|02:55 pm] |
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Today is going alright so far.
I dont see how things could go bad.
anyway.
We woke up this morning and I helped her with her home work.
Then we got ready. I'm at Ivy tech with her right now. She had class today and I had nothing better to do.. so I've been sitting in the library doing nothing.
This weekend.... should be intresting.. atleast I hope. She asked me "honey what are we doing this weekend".. and i honestly have no idea. Maybe we can just stay home and have sex all weekend. sounds like a wonderful plan to me. :0)
I'm like my horoscope today...
Get the weekend off to an early start as only you can. Contact whomever you'll be spending your time with and let them know you're just as enthusiastic about your plans as they are. They'll be off to a head start, of course, since they've been looking forward to this ever since you suggested it. But once they actually see you -- and see that look in your eyes -- well, it really won't matter where you are or what you're doing.
.......... just when you think all is well and good
you get nosey. and noseyness.. well its gets you in trouble. and you see things you wish you wouldn't have seen in the first place.... (just a thought that ran through my head i suppose)
.danielle |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|11:43 pm] |
i have been playing to many of them boy, girl games.
she said "honey you are safe here"
this is a girl, girl thing.
so she finally asked me to be hers last monday... the 16th. :0)
made me very happy. She is just beyond amazing. My life couldn't possibly get any better than this. I'm a completely happy with her.
I've seen a few things that made me feel like someone was stepping on my toes, but jealously will not overwhelm me. I've over it.. just at first i was slightly pissed off.
Last night we went to Cindy and Talia's house for tuesday night dinner. It was nice. Then I took my lovely to work. As I was driving back to Cindy and Talia's place she called me and told me she left her keys there so i picked up the keys then took them back to her work. I finally got back to cindy and talias at like 11:30ish and i just sat around with them, talked, and put together a puzzle. Then my woman called and told me i could come pick her up from work. After work we went back to her house to watch a movie and *stuff*.. The movie was really good.
Today we went to see her sister. And we went to panera bread ::yum::. After that we went to Allys house and watch the episode of the L word that we missed. When we got back to my apartment she took a nap, and i decided i would be crafty so i made her a card and inside it had all the stuff i love about her, and a picture of me. Its was adoreable.. The front said.. Wishful, Sinful.... Our love is beautiful. I love it.
Well I suppose i'm gonna go.. I have one new picture in my user pics, then a bunch scrolling on my page of my love and I.
Hope everyone else is as happy as I am.
.danielle |
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[Jan. 15th, 2006|04:07 pm] |
things are a bit better.
theres been lots of talking between me and the girl. we've talked through most of it. and we are back on our good terms. it makes me a happier. shes at her moms for the weekend so not seeing her everyday is a bit werid. but we miss eachother so thats all that matters.
last night was very very very fun. i'm sorry to anyone i drunk dialed.
i went over to my cousin chris's house. they were having a poker tournament. which turned into everyone drinking. Jen and I were doing tequila shots, with the salt and lime and everything. i'm pretty sure we like 8 to 10 shots of tequila, and they were double shot glasses so thats mor like 16 to 20 shots of tequila. then we did shots of bahama mamas. and those were in the double shot glasses so like 4 of those. and i had one strawberry daquari. it was fun. i just remember telling jen that she needed to shot with me again.
I called stormi and bethany. I wanted them to come pick me up so i could sleep in my bed. so they found me.. and jill was in the car with them. I kept hitting on jill like hardcore. And i kept getting mad at bethany cause she was going the wrong way... and i was dancing and i told jill i would sex her like no one has ever sexed her before. jill i am very sorry that i kept hitting on you.
thats night was fucking crazy shit. beth came over. i was so drunk i'm not even sure how i ended up telling how to get to my apartment.
well i am going to go finish watching my game.. its close bitches. GO CLOTS!!!!!!!!
.danielle |
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| puzzle pieced together.. then shattered again. |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|02:02 pm] |
like i said nothing stays too perfect in my world.
i'm not too sure where everything stands.
all i know is i think i've cried enough today.
i havent really slept. when i try to sleep a thousand thoughts run through my head a mile a minute.
i'm not hungry. and i have a million knots in my stomach.
i feel like i want to vomit.
::sigh::
anyway.
i saw my mom today for a few brief seconds.
we were suppose to go to lunch but that didnt happen.
now i'm at my old apartment with jessica.
we're going out tonight. so that should put me in a somewhat brighter mood.
i just wish..........
thats all i can do is wish.
i'm sure this weekend is going to be hell.
.danielle |
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| perfection. |
[Jan. 12th, 2006|12:37 am] |
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life is wonderful.
well as wonderful as it gets.
i got a new job.
at Andy Mohr Lincoln Mercury.
i started there on monday.
my girl situation is pretty fuckin good at the moment.
shes is still the most amazing person i've ever met. but all in all shes still scares me to death. in a good way.
things couldnt be any better.
so i should probably fear for the worst.
cause nothing ever stays perfect in my world.
.danielle |
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[Jan. 6th, 2006|05:47 pm] |
just doing a quick update.
things are amazing.
it couldnt get any better.
i'm crazy over her.
( pictures )
i'm so happy.
.danielle |
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[Jan. 4th, 2006|01:06 am] |
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geez. three thirty can't come any faster. :0)
i'm so smitten. it makes stormi want to vomit a little.
hah.
this girl is so wonderful.. its like i dont really believe whats going on right now. it has to be a dream or something. no one i've ever been intrested in has been so nice to my friends. like the other days stormi was having a horrible day so she went out and came back with a pink rose for stormi and a yellow rose for me. i love yellow roses.
i'm sure you guys are so tired of me talking about this girl but i just havent been this freakin happy since like umm 3 years ago when i met adam. thats crazy. cause if you knew me then ... well you would know how crazily happy i was.
shes calling... i'm gonna go.
.danielle |
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| simply amazing |
[Jan. 3rd, 2006|01:45 pm] |
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i am so amazingly happy right now with everything in my life.
i have the most wonderful roommate you could ask for.
i've spent the last week with a wonderful girl. and last night, we both randomly woke up and she looked at me and said "you're beautiful". i just replied with your amazing. ::sigh::
i'm crazy about her.
on another note.
i'm house sitting for my mom this week.. woohoo.. not so fun.
i can't get this stupid grin off my face.
.danielle |
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| wooo christmas! |
[Dec. 25th, 2005|10:37 am] |
so i woke my mom and bleinda up at about 5:30 or 6 this morning.
and we opened presents..
so my presents consisted of...
( presents! )
i got a bunch of other little things like perfume and whatnot..
but thats all the big stuff.
hope everyone has a good christmas!
.danielle |
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| nobody gonna love me better |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|01:11 am] |
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this weekend was wonderful.
friday- drunk at mike and pennys
saturday- drunk at jazz and stormi's
(i couldnt be any happier about some things that happend saturday)
sunday- got my pictures done and went to mels for her family christmas thing
monday- drunk at lisa and beths
and now tonight.. i'm at my moms. i was suppose to stay until christmas, but her girlfriend is being a bitch so i probably wont stay here. then my mom sat me down and had an extremely long conversation with me about moving to Fl. which resulted in me crying and her trying to convince me to stay. i'm just not sure. i wanted to escapse so terribly bad. i dont know..
i'm feeling amazingly happy lately. i'm not sure how i'm keeping my composure because there are a few people who are trying to bring me down and make me feel like shit, but hey guess what... YOU ARENT GOING TO SUCCEED. i love this feeling of me actually excepting who i really am.
well i am going to go watch a movie
maybe fall asleep.
goodnight my love
.danielle |
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[Dec. 16th, 2005|01:31 am] |
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so i'm uber frustrated cause i definately have to be up at like 6 to go to work with my mom cause my car wasnt done when i got there today so i was stranded.. therefore it was a mother daughter night.. her boss chad and i had a talk.. he was making me feel real bad about moving to FL. he says i should move, because i guess its hurting my mom or something... but if my mom really wanted me here then she needs to stand up to her freakin girlfriend. but umm oh well.
anyway my mom and i went to the mall, and i finished up a lot of my christmas shopping. the only ppl i have left to by for is my mom and my nanny. yepp.
saw tiffany tonight.. and i must say she is freakin adorebale. very very awesome.
haha i am sitting here watching daria. omg i use to love this show so much i swear i was like in 6th grade when this show was on, then it went off.. and now the only channel they play it on is that noggin channel.
bleh i need to go to the doctor but i dont want to... i'm extremely scared of what their gonna say. its scaryyyy. =0\
You try to break me Try to hate me
So you can fall out of love
You want to make me believe that I'm crazy
That I'm nothing with out you
It's unbelievable but I believed you
Unforgivable but I forgave you
Insane what love can do
That keeps me coming back to you
You're irreplaceable but I'll replace you
Now I'm standing on my own
Alone
alrighty well i'm gonna go cause ya i'm tired of writting.
.danielle
ps. oh ya i'm begining to hate the effin snow and cold! |
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[Dec. 14th, 2005|02:09 am] |
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last night i escaped to my lesbians apartment... and i stayed up until 6:30 in the morning making my scrapbook. i love how putting all of my feelings and memories on paper made me feel so much better.. and it felt like i just lifted a huge weight off of my shoulders.
theres a section about..
-sex
-LOVE
-adam
-nick
-my art
-the best friend .. katey
-and me.
i've never been so happy with myself at 6:30 in the morning before. it felt so nice to put all the truths and what not on paper.. all of my feelings.. how much a certain person is doing things intentionally to make me hate them.. and how another person can just disappear. i want to get my book completely done before i leave for FL. i'm going to start fresh once i'm there... i'm working on making myself a new person.... brand new. its amazing.
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so today was decent. i woke up at like 2 cause katey called and woke me up. then jazz ordered chinese food.. it was good. after food i came home and katey followed me to the car place so i could drop off my car. EVERYTHING IS GETTING FIXED!!!!!! i am so happy about that. my mom wants to make sure everything is in good shape before i drive to FL. shes been so wonderful lately. i think shes just doing it because her little girl is moving states away. well anyway after we dropped the car off we came back to the house and got changed and headed to target, then to get food. we were both kinda hungry so we went to olive garden. it was tasty. definately couldnt eat it all cause i was still a bit full off of the chinese.
i love how i am so content. thats just the perfect word for what i am at the moment.. i'm very happy and content with everything in my life. it couldnt get any better. i love my friends.
stormi and jazz.
you two make me amazingly happy.
goodnight everyone.
well maybe not.
i cant decide if i'm sleepy.
.danielle |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|01:13 am] |
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i'm so afriad to love you..
but more afraid to loose.
today has been a day from hell by far. i'm just ready to move, get on with my life... put my past behind me. thats exactly what i need/am going to do. i just need to continue reminding myself only a month 1/2 to 2 months and we will be in florida.
i'm tired of crying these undeserving tears.. you dont deserve my tears.
you make my stomach into a million knots, and i hate it with passion.
why does it take you saying one fucked up thing to me that gets me to loose it all? i'm not myself. i'm lost, confused, and hurt. you wont be able to redeem yourself from this one. theres not a possible way it could happen.
i need to go smoke or something.
.danielle |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|01:37 pm] |
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so this weekend has been amazing so far.
friday i just sat around the house with my katey. and we made cookies.
saturday... i went over to my lesbians house. i love them. i made katey go with me. so it was me, katey, gina, and jazz. Jazz was so cute she was getting everything ready for the night because it was her and ashlies one month. well stormi and bethany came over and i ended up going to illusions with them. i freakin love the gay bar. we watched the drag show. i didnt drink this time cause i was DD. but i so got hit on by this woman who its friends with my mom. LMAO. then i got hit on by like a 30 yr old man. I was sitting there thinking umm duh we are in a gay bar leave me alone. lol
now i'm just over at my moms watching the football game. GO COLTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i was suppose to go to her christmas party but i didnt feel like getting all prettied up and stuff. so i'm just going to keep belinda company while my mom is at the party.
well i think thats all thats been going on..
hope all is well.
.danielle |
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[Dec. 8th, 2005|12:27 am] |
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love is never easy to find
because you are never
suppose to look for it
i feel like i just need someone to wake me up. wake me up from this dream. everything right now feels like a dream. its not real. but i know in the back of my mind that every single thing happening right now is all reality.....
reality is bound to get the best of me.
your words are not enough. so please dont speak them to to me.
i have a feeling things in my life are suddenly going to become amazingly wonderful. i can feel like. i'm awefully excited for it to come.
thats all.
.danielle |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|11:29 pm] |
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i dont even know anymore what i'm doing with my life. things seem so shot and so fucked up.
non existant..thats how i should just explain everything.
love life- non existant
job- non existant
a place to call home- non existant
things are just becoming horrid. and some of it is my fault. and i know this. and i plan on fixing it... i'm trying to fix it. i just need something absolutely wonderful to happen in my life.. its like everything that potentially could be for good.. isnt nothing is forever. thats what i just need to keep telling myself.. that it will never be FOREVER. theres no such thing...
i've lost all of my passion for things.. i no longer believe that two people are meant to be together for the rest of their lives.. that every one has a soulmate.... other half... whatever i use to say... i dont care, i dont believe. i've been burned way too many times at such a young age that i just dont care anymore and have honestly lost all hope.
i had a dream the other night. i had my baby.. ever since that night i've been in this like daze. i'm not sure what to think about it.. i mean i shouldnt think anything of it but its just stuck in my mind.. everytime i go to sleep i have the same dream... so for the past 3 nights i've had the same dream. the dream that i never wanted to have.. the dream that continues to fuck with me.
i'm so fustrated that i cant even go spend sometime with my mom at her house if i want to all because her girlfriend doesnt want company. my mom is the only true family i have... and when its gotten to the point that i cant go see her .. it hurts. i dont know how to handle that..
i dont know how to handle much of anything thats going on in my life right now.
i just need someone who will just sit and listen to me.. let me cry.. let me get pissed off... and when i'm ready let them hold me...
i need that.. maybe venting to someone other than a computer would help.. but i already know it wont happen...
sorry i needed to vent.
.danielle |
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[Nov. 25th, 2005|02:15 am] |
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I cant sleep..
well i was asleep either then my fucking phone rang and woke me up
so then i just decided to stay awake bleh... i hate it
i want to sleep.
cause when i'm sleeping i dont have to deal with reality.
well nothing is new.
hope everyone had a wonderful thanksgiving.
( No love, No glory )
.danielle
oh lmao
guess what bitch
he told me i do it better than you..
half of you are prly wondering wtf i'm talking about..
its just an inside joke between a friend and i. |
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[Nov. 21st, 2005|01:11 am] |
i thought i really wanted to write in here..
but i start writting things then i hit the backspace button.
i'm just trying to spare your feelings |
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[Nov. 15th, 2005|05:00 pm] |
new hair cut..
woooo
.danielle |
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[Nov. 13th, 2005|01:46 pm] |
last night was fun.
went down town to illusions (its a gay bar)
watched mel, gina, and lisa and get up and do kareoke.
then the drag show started so i started drinking.
and seeing as how i have stupid luck when they wanted to come talk to someone
they picked me. but it was fun.
angela stone is def. my fav. queen of the night.
mel and i finally got home, once we got into bed we were both out.
then we woke up at like 11:30 today.
now i'm home. bored off my ass.
i think i'm going to go lay down, or shower.
i kinda smell like cigarettes and rum. grosss.
.danielle |
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